Dead end

Still awake and got nothing to do

But to stare at the blank phase of my room

Practising my song for you

hoping that you could hear me sing

It might be impossible for you to appreciate it

but that’s the only thing I could do for you

I’m not one of those girl that you admire the most

but I’m the who’s deeply longing for your attention

Just a "hi" from you makes me wanna dance

Dance even if there’s no music to rhyme

I got my feet on the ground

But you make my soul fly

It does feel good to break free and soar high

To be careless for once just to show how I admire you

But I had given so much effort and take off all my pride

and still you can’t notice my existence

It’s hard to be on this situation but now its time to let go

say goodbye to  everything

I’m tired of hoping that one day you and me will become us

Us had fade away, You are gone and me have to move on

I am now realizing that you are worthless of the love that I had given

I thought giving love to someone  would be great

but recieving love back is the greatest.

It is the end and there’s no one more chance. 

an introduction

 Hey. Ahm, surprised? OH, this is my first post in here. I want my first post to be an intro for myself. Well, you can call me PAM. I’m from Philippines. Pure blooded Filipino and proud to be a "pinoy". I am still a student in college here taking up BS Nursing. Dreaming of earning dollars and euro but of course my real dream was to give service to other. MMM,much sound serious. I am not a serious type of girl. I am easy going and friendly.(i think) But as of the moment I am quite confused of what I want in my life. I am always wanting something different. I want to be just a person lived in this world. I want to be someone, may not be a history but a person who could be in memory of some people, a girl named PAM to be remembered. I am so futuristic. I want to imagine myself in the future, but sometimes I don’t want to see what images flashes, it just makes me feel stupid, feel scared of what will happen in my real life. Now, I want just to live on, face the reality and find my way to the end. But there’s a big question in my head. Where di i go from here?